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my christmas wishlist

while everyone is busy thinking of their tangible gifts this Christmas, let me share mine. This may sound weird since everyone or most if not all, wants something new.

this season, a time for wishing, i just wish that anyone who could read this may be able to understand that i'm not trying to make people envious of me. i'm wishing because im entitled of it and i'm doing it so that those who are willing,will do me a favor.

Please pray for me because I just submitted my application form to UP WITH PEOPLE. If God be willing, I am traveling with the group sometime in July. Please help me knock on Heaven's Door to pass the interview and raise 14,000 USD to be with them. A person just came to me and told me to apply and he's more than willing to look for sponsors. This opportunity just happens rarely and to see my parents support may this be a burden are just simply the reasons why I'm pushing it. I won't be wishing for anything but for your PRAYER that God will let me into the group. The tour will not be of any luxurious purposes, this is going to be a global community service, so it's really on a good purpose.

To those who would like to grant my wish , it would be really highly appreciated. Thank you so much.

Again my purpose is not to brag. If it won't happen, then it won't. I hope I would not be hearing anyone saying that Im just press releasing on this matter.

UP WITH PEOPLE

BRINGING THE WORLD TOGETHER. That's how their slogan says.

It's been a while since the last time I updated my blog. I've been pretty busy for the past days and I know it's just a lame excuse for not having something interesting to talk about. I was avoiding to look stuffy on my posts coz that would simply bore everyone.

It was few months ago when my mom first told me about this group of people from different countries coming here in the Philippines for a community service thing. She said, she signed up for hosting members. To cut it short, we're a host family. Since it was quite far from the date she told me about it, I didn't mind. I just said it was OK and asked her few things on how the set up was gonna be. (so I did mind..hehe) She said we're just going to provide a place for them to stay and food to eat. I didn't really bother that it was going to be a nose-bleeding situation to be with some people I dont know, what bothered me was, where the heck am i gonna sleep. Our house isn't big. It's not even good to let people in. But my mom said, that they have to experience how Filipinos live their lives. I wanted to tell my mom that they could go to the mountains and live with the native ones if that's what they need.I won't win over my mom though, she's bringing the money in so I dont have the right to protest, anyway it was september when she told me about it and that would happen in December.

Few days before December 5, since I forgot about the people coming, she told everyone in the house that there were 2 western people coming over to stay with us for 10 days. I was really holding my breath when I heard her say it. It's my first time to have the longest 5 seconds in my life when she said it. My world stopped and I was wishing to die. I am not over-acting but seriously I didn't like the idea that I'm gonna be staying with English speaking people for 10 days, share the same food and be with them whenever my mom says. I didn't know what to do but she's solid on her decision.

December 5 - I was at work when my mom started calling me to be with her to pick up my "foster sisters". I said I couldn't coz Im doing overtime work. It was a big no for her and I must do what I was told. She knew that I was just lying. I was going crazy that time when I was about to go to the pick up place and my mom told me that they just arrived. She wanted me to go home straight instead. When I got home they we're front of the house while my mom was on the door trying to pull their heavy luggage. I was surprised that I forgot to offer my help to my mom who id be sharing love and care with the 2 big girls in front of me for 10 days. The next thing I knew was my mom asking me to help her carry their things. I took their luggage in and my mom introduced me to ANNAKA and LINDA. They're from the USA and Finland respectively. I rushed the hello thingy and jumped to my sorry-the-house-isn't-that-good statement. I felt comfortable when they said it's ok coz they had the worst thing in their lives when they told me that in Mexico they even slept on the floor.

I didn't have much talk with them coz I had a birthday party to go to that night so I bid goodbye to both of them. I went home late and they're sleeping when I arrived. I woke up late and they're gone on Subic tour and had to leave early in the morning according to my mom. So I had to compose myself while they're out. I didn't want to tell anyone that I'm teaching English coz that might upset them if they knew that Im messing up with their language. They came home at around 6pm and my mom had to pick them up where they were dropped off by their staff. I couldn't really be myself whenever they're around. I would always think about being intimidated by them whenever I'm gonna ask them something or otherwise.

So what are they here for? They're with UP WITH PEOPLE. They do community service and some outreach programs to the needy ones. How did my mom know about it? My mom is just a social butterfly to volunteer hosting members. It's a non-profit organization and they travel for 6 months to different countries.That's why they need a host family so it could at least lessen the burden of paying for their accommodation. I didn't understand their idea at first since there are a lot of non-profit organizations that do the same thing they do, aside from the HOST FAMILY thing.

My aunt got 2 members too. So basically, we're hosting 4 girls. But my aunt lives in a different place. The thing here is, I have to look after all of them. They're a group of young people, between 19-29. Ours are between 19-22. My aunt has got CHERYSSA (USA) and TINA (germany). Tonight they had their FINAL PERFORMANCE which they do everytime they leave the place. (they did it in manila because they also went there to do their thing). Anyways, yes, it's final coz Subic is their last stop and they're all going home. Their 6 month-community-service tour ends here in Subic. 2 days to go and all of them are flying back home.

This is such a wonderful experience that they're really bringing the world together. They adapt to the culture of the people which is kinda hard especially when you travel for 6 months and you're gonna meet different families serving totally different food from each other, you have to adjust your body clock and bear a terrible jet lag from a long trip (coz they came all the way from mexico after doing their US tour). It's good to know that there are still people willing to see the world on a good purpose and pay for 14 US dollars just to serve people across nations. I hope that hosting them could bring us closer to the rest of the people in the world. In this way, I was able to experience USA, FINLAND, GERMANY and not to mention other members I met, without getting a VISA. They;ve been all good and appreciative to the accommodation we gave them. They embraced the Filipino culture with all their hearts and showed us that there could still be unity in diversity, that there is no greater race in this world and we are all equal. The organization primarily promotes service to people and this entails everything that we need to achieve world peace which is quite getting too impossible to many.

I'm wishing that I could be a part of this group in the next few years. They had a big impact on me and watching their show made me realize that general interest should always be superior to our self-interest .

As per my mom, MA, SARAP NG ULAM NITONG MGA NAKARAANG ARAW!!!! nyahahahahaha!

OCTOBER 9, 2008 - PAALAM SUGPO!

Lasing akong umuwi ng bahay bandang alas kwatro ng madaling araw. Partida, may pasok pa ako kinaumagahan. Kelangan kong gumusing ng alas sais ng umaga. Napasarap ang pagtambay ko kasama sina Sandara Park, Katrina Halili, Keso de Bola, Dennis Trillo, Rachel Lobangco at ang humabol na si Robert de Niro. Naparami ang Vodka Ice - libre kasi. Tatlong bars ang pinuntahan namin at kung sakaling maaprubahan ang proposal ko with Mc Donalds na itransform ang business into a BAR, apat na bars ang pinuntahan namin.
Late ng 30 mins ang gising ko. Pero dahil minsan akong nagtraining sa Military at may sapi rin ako ni The Flash, nakaabot pa ako sa oras. Pero puyat ako. Ang sakit sa ulo. Nag-inarte pa akong may sakit mapagbigyan lang ng boss kong makatulog sa oras ng trabaho. Epektibo naman. Paglabas ng "snooze box" - "hey, what happened to you? Are you OK? Fix your hair." "Ah, eh, owkey ser" ang sabi ko naman. Medyo caught-off guard ako sa mga panahong yun. Ininglish pa ako, mas lalong sumakit tuloy ang ulo ko. Makalipas ang ilang sandali, nakikipagpatintero na naman ang antok. Mistulang iniinggit ako ng bawat upuan na makita ko. At ang mga ding-ding ay mistulang bumubulong na "sumandal ka sa akin." Maya't-maya ang mga nakaw na sandali ng pag-idlip ko.
Alas Dose na!!! Lunch na!!! yahoo!!! Pumunta ako ng Cafeteria bitbit ang baunan ko. Nilapag at binuksan. Nakita ko ang pulang ulam ko. Parang nagsibabaan ang mga anghel sa langit. Ang mga pipi'y nagsigawan. Tumalon ang mga pilay. Ang mga bingi'y nagkantahan at nag-jack n' poy ang mga walang kamay at mga bulag ay ay ay... wala lang. -isang MILAGRO! SUGPO ANG ULAM KO!!! Tandang-tanda ko pa ang bawat langhap , paghimay at pag-lasap ko sa apat na seksing sugpo. "ang sarap niyo." Makalipas ang lunch ng mga co-construction worker ko, tumuloy na ako sa cubicle ko para muling mag-hibernate. Pinatay ko ang ilaw para mas maging sensual ang pag-idlip ko. 1... 2... 3... PAK! ANG KATI!!! Napag-isip pa tuloy ako kung naligo ako bago pumasok sa trabaho. Hindi maganda ang serbisyo ng memory ko dahil medyo lasing pa ako. Inabot ako ng 10 minutes sa pagninilay-nilay ng pagligo ko.
Maya-maya, mas lumalala ang kati. Mistulang epidemyang kumakalat sa buong katawan ko ang kati. Inisip ko na baka mainit lang ang panahon. Pero hindi. Ibang level ang kati. Lumabas ako ng cubicle para magpalamig ng konti at makapaghilamos. Pag-labas ko ay nakita ako ng co-worker ko. "What happened to you? You're all red!" "ow rili?" ang sagot ko. Nag-isip naman kaagad ako. Nireregla ako? Bwahahaha. Pero teka, I was all red daw.Tumakbo kaagad ako sa RESTROOM para tignan ang sarili ko. Tinamaan ng... HAM NGA! RED NGA!!! Dali-dali akong pumunta kay TINA PANER para humingi ng anti-histamine. "Dis is impasibol. I don't hab allergy wid eyniting" "Sira-ulo ka!" "there's always a first time for everything." mabilis na tugon ni tina. "Kunin mo na nga mga gamit mo, itatakbo na kita sa ospital" "Wag kang OA, OK pa ako" sabi ko naman. "OO nga, OK ka ngayun, pero mamaya mamamanhid na buong katawan mo. At ang worst, hindi ka makakahinga." "weh, di nga? OA ka lang e." ang kontra ko. "ay naku bahala ka, ikaw na maging nurse!" "eto na nga kukunin ko na gamit ko e." Siya rin ang nagwagi. Pagdating sa hospital, namamaga na nga ako. Direct I.V. kagad. " O shiyet, masakit!"
Ang ending, pinauwi na ako ng bahay. Magpahinga na lang daw ako. WOW SABAW! Gusto ko niyan! Puyat ako e. Pagdating sa bahay, kamot pa rin ako ng kamot. Naligo ako ng mainit na tubig. Yung kumukulo. Di pa rin nawawala ang kati. Naghanap ako ng mabisang substitute sa kuko ko na pununong puno na ng dead skin cell ng mga panahon na yun. At natagpuan ko ang hair clam ng nanay ko! Panalo to. Ayos! SOLB! Nahiga na ako at nagpaantok kasabay ng pagkamot sa buong katawan ko. After 5 hours. -- tulog pa rin ako kasi 6 hours akong nakatulog. Paggising ko, wala na ang kati. YAHOOO!!!! Nawala man ang kati, nakakalungot namang isipin na WALA NA RIN ANG SUGPO! Yaya you're such a loser! haaaay. (T_T)

TATAK PINOY!!!! filipinism

I just came across this article while surfing the world wide web!

ONLI PINOYS HAVE IT!!!!!


These are the words that are so unique and loaded in meaning that they will never find a direct translation in the English language.

Forget traditional dictionaries. Keep this.

1. Achuchu (A-chu-chu).
This refers to the pointless insincerities being said
during long, involved conversations about nothing at all.

2. Ano (A-noh)
The all-around, all-purpose word for everything.

(1) Pronoun in interrogation: Ano? (What)
(2) Noun: Where is your ano? (Where is
your father/mother/dead-uncle's-second-cousin)
(3) Verb: Anuhin this.
(Paint/kill/maim/castrate this.)
(4) Adjective: This is so ano. (This is so
pretty/big/astounding.)
(5) Interjection: Ano! (What the hell!)
(6) Substitute for genitalia: Did you ano
your ano?

The use of ano is quite dangerous for the untrained ear,
and must be put into the proper setting.
"Honey, the ano is too long, we have to cut it," must be
accompanied by the proper understanding of the context, as results may be critical to a couple's future.

3. Booba (boo-bah).
A female blessed with larger than usual mammary glands,
which can be used as weapons of mass destruction.

4. Checheboreche (Che-che-boh-re-che)
Same as achuchu. It is interesting to ponder on the reason
why there are so many words in the Filipino language
that beautifully describe meaningless chatter.

5. Epal (Eh-pal).
An individual who believes he is God.

6. Gigil (gee-gil).
An uncontrollable desire to bite something.

7. Hipon (Hee-pon).
Literally "shrimp," whose body is eaten while its head is
thrown away, this refers to a female whose body is to die for
and whose face looks like it belongs to the dead.

8. Kikay (kee-kay).
Refers to individuals who carry a brush, hand wash,
moisturizer, lip-gloss and various other facial enhancements in a case
(aptly called a kikay kit) inside her bag.
Recent inspections of various backpacks have led to the conclusion it is not a purely female trait.
This breed cannot resist checking themselves out on mirrors,
glass windows, bread knives, sidewalk puddles and
plastic-covered notebooks.

9. Kaekekan (Ka-ek-e-kahn)
Same as achuchu and chechebureche.

10. Kilig (keel-leg).
A rush of excitement due to the actions, presence
or even mention of he whom you see as the future father of
your children.

11. Laglag-panti (lag-lag-pan-tee).
A man so incredibly hot, so heart-stoppingly gorgeous
and oozing with masculinity that female underwear
(whether worn by males or females) falls to the ground
without effort whatsoever.

12. Laglag-brip (lag-lag-brip).
The female counterpart of laglag-panti


13. Indyanero (In-jan-neh-ro).
An individual who fails to appear at anappointment
without prior warning. Not to be confused with individuals
who appear according to Filipino time
(approximately 10 minutes before the meeting is to end)

14. Japorms (Jah-porms).
Describes an individual dressed differently
from the usual (typically involves clothes
that have been laundered and pant legs of roughly the same
length).

15. Lagot (Lah-got)
A prophesy of evil things to come.

16. Para (Pah-rah).
A term that informs the driver of a jeep to stop
and pause (usually in the middle of the road)
as the individual speaking intends to leave the vehicle.
Dangerous for individuals as drivers seem to believe
having one foot in the air is all that is necessary for
descent.

17. Takusa (Ta-kuh-sa).
Derived from takot sa asawa (afraid of wife),
this is a term used to describe the silent (very silent)
minority of males married to feminine reincarnations of
Hitler.

18. Torpe (tore-peh).

A gentleman who is desperately attracted to a female yet by some strange compulsion is reduced to a frozen mound of stuttering male whenever that female is near.



Armed with this list and a smile, you will be sure to make the proper impression not just on your new relations, but on your loved one as well. Now let's practice:

"Honey, when I first saw you,
I made laglag brip, and was almost torpe.
When I finally got the nerve to date you,
I almost became indyanero,
because I didn't think I had the right japorms.
When you're around, I'm kilig, when you're not, I get gigil.
You may think all this is achuchu, kaekekan, just checheboreche,
but in truth, my love, I'm so ano with you."

CONYO-mandments

This is kindah reposted, you know?!? so make basa na lang. I got this from my ever conio friend bubi! :)

10 Conyo-mandments

by Gerry Avelino and Arik Abu

1. Thou shall make gamit "make+pandiwa".
ex. "Let's make pasok na to our class!"
"Wait lang! I'm making kain pa!"
"Come on na, we can't make hintay anymore! It's in Andrew pa, you know?"

2. Thou shall make kalat "noh", "diba" and "eh" in your pangungusap.
ex. "I don't like to make lakad in the baha nga, no? Eh diba it's like, so eew, diba?"
"What ba: stop nga being maarte noh?"
"Eh as if you want naman also, diba?"

3. When making describe a whatever, always say "It's SO pang-uri!"
ex. "It's so malaki, you know, and so mainit!"
"I know right? So sarap nga, eh!"
"You're making me inggit naman.. I'll make bili nga my own burger."

4. When you are lalaki, make parang punctuation "dude", 'tsong" or "pare"
ex. "Dude, ENGANAL is so hirap, pare."
"I know, tsong, I got bagsak nga in quiz one, eh"

5. Thou shall know you know? I know right!
ex. "My bag is so bigat today, you know"
"I know, right! We have to make dala pa kasi the jumbo Physics book eh!"

6. Make gawa the plural of pangngalans like in English or Spanish.
ex. "I have so many tigyawats, oh!"

7. Like, when you can make kaya, always use like. Like, I know right?
ex. "Like, it's so init naman!"
"Yah! The aircon, it's, like sira!"

8. Make yourself feel so galing by translating the last word of your sentence, you know, your pangungusap?
ex. "Kakainis naman in the LRT! How plenty tao, you know, people?"
"It's so tight nga there, eh, you know, masikip?"

9. Make gamit of plenty abbreviations, you know, daglat?"
ex. "Like, OMG! It's like traffic sa LRT"
"I know right? It's so kaka!"
"Kaka?"
"Kakaasar!"

10. Make gamit the pinakamaarte voice and pronunciation you have para full effect!
ex. "I'm, like, making aral at the Arrhneo!"
"Me naman, I'm from Lazzahl!"

naisip ko lang... KAYO ANO SA PALAGAY NIYO?

"it's kind of a spiritual snobbery to say you are happy when you don't have money. 'Coz poor people can't just help it and don't realize the happiness money could give."

Medyo totoo. Medyo mali. Depende naman siguro sa paningin ng tao kung san siya sasaya. Merong sobrang materialistic, meron namang sakto lang... pero materialistic pa rin. Pero parang totoo naman di ba? Yung iba ineenjoy na lang kasi alam nilang hindi naman sila yayaman, pero umaasa -- positibo lang talaga sila. Kaya nga siguro naglipana ang mga one-day millionaire kasi bibihira lang makatikim ng ginhawa sa buhay -- "aray!" hahahahahaha!

Ewan ko... kayo??? ano sa palagay niyo?

be proud you are a teacher, the future depends on you!

Mag-aalas dos na ng madaling araw at kakatapos ko lang gumawa ng limang sets ng exam para sa friday, Tinapos ko na ngayung wednesday pa lang (pero technically thursday na kasi madaling araw na e) para maabisuhan ko na kung sino man ang substitute teacher sa mga klaseng maiiwan ko sa viernes habang naglalakwatsa ako sa Maynila.

Ansakit sa ulong isipin na pinagpupuyatan ko ang bagay na paghihirapan din ng iba. Naisip ko na nga rin minsang dayain na lang ang exam at hulaan na lang ang grade na pwedeng ibigay sa kanila.Pero hindi. Ayoko namang lokohin ang sarili ko kapalit ng baryang ibinabayad saken ng eskwelahan. Ngayun ko naisip na ang hirap pala ng buhay nila Ma'm Bore ng Biology nung High school, sir balois ng soc sci., Ma'am Rucan ng PE, Ma'am Daduya at Figueroa ng English at Ma'am Sidon ng Filipino. Isama mo na rin ang buhay ni Ma'am Escudero at Michelle Mendoza. Pota, ang hirap maging isang guro! At ang kapalit ng pagbibigay ng exam ay isang malinis na papel na hindi man lang napatakan ng tinta ng bolpen maliban sa pangalang isinulat na minsa'y missing in action pa. Di ko lubos maisip na yung papel na pinagsulatan ng exam ay dudumihan lang at sasagutan ng mali-mali o kung mas malas at wala talagang mapiga, ibabalik na ang papel after 10 seconds na ma-scan ng estudyante at magkamot ng ulo.

Bakit pa kasi word processed ang exam na ginawa ko e di naman kame required sa school na mag-encode pa. Tamang hand-written questionnaire lang tabla tabla na raw. E ayoko ng ganun, nagpapalakad nga ako ng papel e. At ang ink ng printer ko mistulang naghihingalo na dahil nagbubuga na ito ng red at black ink sa papel. Parang Pugita lang. Bakit ko nga ba kelangan pang pahirapan sarili ko e hindi ko naman pakikinabangan kung may natutunan man sila sa akin o wala. Mas matutuwa pa nga siguro ako kung wala silang natutunan. Sa gayun, mas magiging madali para sa mga Pinoy ang makipagsabayan. Pota, mukhang mahirap pa rin. Kasi kung wala naman sila, kawawa rin ang iba, malamang ang iba sa amin tumatanggap na ng labada sa mga oras na ito.

Be proud you are a teacher, the FUTURE of KOREA depends on you! -- asteg!!!! Tulog na ako. Baka Di ko pa mapacheck sa bisor ko bukas ang mga exam papers ko pag na-late ako!

I'm working behind closed doors.Don

I've got a strong personality and cocky aura, but please don't misjudge me. I ain't working in there to compete with everyone. If there's someone I'm competing with and someone I want to win over, that's me, not anyone else. If you think I'm a kiss-ass, you're wrong, I have some devilish ways to break some rules. I just know when to meet my tasks and do my dues. No one is above anyone. You're words and prejudices might just thrown into waste coz I only got one way to vent it out, THIS! I wont fight you back coz I'm working behind closed doors, just like everybody else. Don't waste too much of your time talking about me, you're just adding a feather on my hat. You're just pushing me so hard to do better, and the next thing you'll know is that your heads are on my plate. To those people who wanted verbal-war, I won't buy it. That's too cheap to consider. If students like the way I teach, don't tell them I ain't good. Coz you're jsut confusing yourself the standard of what is good and what is not. Mind your own business. My style is something you can't change. The way I dress is something I dont bear to prove that I had gained so much confidence from the places I've been to or from the places I worked in. I never missed to become a kind-hearted neophyte in this craft. I have reached out to those who raised their eyebrows at me. I have shared my smile to a lot. I can only do so much, what about you? what can you do?

I'm working behind closed doors.

self-confess ignorance

While everyone enjoys the latest music in multiply.com, mine hasn't any, not even a single note from a song.It was that plain and simple. Im aware that we're living in a past-faced world and the need to be knowledgeable in the hottest stuff isn't my task. I always had someone to do something I don't know for me, just like the know-how on posting music in this site.

The very first time I had this account running, I asked for someone's help to put some designs on my page. The theme, font style and size were just a mere suggestion but nothing was really done by me. Im an idiot trying to be a freak of the hottest things.

Everyday I update my site, I feel a little boring because of the deafening silence. No music is being played. I never thought that uploading songs would be that hard for a non-music lover like me, especially when there is no song saved in the computer. Yes, I said it right. No song. Zero music. At all. My decision to put a song almost became a long quest to find a gold in the mountain. I asked for some friends help but no one was more than willing to walk me through the process. Just a good save Nikki was online. She patiently helped me download limewire and java (by the way, I know there are other options, but she's also a self-confessed ignorant and that's the only way she knows to post music). So we were like blind people trying to help each other walk on the street with the big chance of being side swept by cars! During the process, we were kind of laughing at each other's idiocracy but patiently trying to endeavor it. We were able to make it -- it took 2 hours though. We never gave up! She was surprisingly willing to repeat the whole process with me when our first attempt didn't work. That's a real friend! ahahaha

lessons:

• Never try to be someone if you can't - makes sense!
• Patience is a virtue, but time is gold. we finished past my sleeping time! I have work tomorrow. huhuhuhu
• Being a freak on something isn't good. But being a total jerk is worse!
• A friend in need is a friend indeed! hehehehe
• Music is life, but being early to bed and early to rise makes a man's life healthy, wealthy and wise.
• Don't entertain boredom, it causes you to do crazy things!
• Remember the Wright Brothers - the first attempt to fly the airplane didn't work but because they HAD determination, we can fly to other places!
• always say thank you for someone's help. Thank you PAKS! you're the best. At last!
  

twilight of life

WHILE waiting for a friend, I entertained the thought of death. I am on my way to manila in an hour together with a friend who stays in that big city. I have stayed there for almost 3 years and it's no longer a strange place for me. I'll be there for one reason, a death of relative's relative. It may sound absurd for some to hear this, but yes, the person is not in anyway related to me.

But I do pay respect for him to begin with. I heard the news about his suffering the day it started. I was with my cousin in Singapore when we were, or she was bugged by her lolo's condition. The old man fought a battle of pneumonia. The seemingly irrational confidence that he will be winning over it didn't come and will never come. I saw how my cousin prayed hard for her lolo's recovery. My cousin nonchalantly went back here in the Philippines when her mom asked for her help to look after her grandpa. She put aside her dream of landing on a good job in the Lion City to be with the old man's battle.

I am not really good at giving advice to bereaved people. Although I have experienced losing some of my loved ones, their death did not really break me into pieces. I have known since the time I was active in church that death is a physical phenomenon that only implies God has taken one's life away. It maybe really hard to accept that we will no longer be able to extend our warmest love to the dead, physically. With one's death, kisses, hugs and talks die too - things that we can only do with people alive. I can never weigh the gravity on people's lives on how they grieve the death of whoever they lose. I can never say OK when it's not. I just know that it may really be painful but life has to move on for those who are left behind.

In my cousin's case, she witnessed everything. She witnessed how her lolo fought for his life. She witnessed how her lolo slowly left. She witnessed how God has taken her lolo's life away. And I witnessed her how she dealt with it when we were in the foreign land.

I may not be able to open my mouth when we see each other. I don't know how to comfort people through words. But I hope my presence at your grandfather's wake would be more than enough to say that my condolences are with you. Life never stops at the death of a loved one. He might have accomplished his mission in the physical world that's why he left. He maybe gone physically but the memories you shared together will always linger.

I GET A LITTLE GRUMPY:

• when i wake up on the wrong side of the bed, Hitler exorcises me!
• when food isn't cook yet if it's time to eat, glutton turns to anger
• when people are given chances and yet they tend to neglect it, i dont get grumpy, i lose patience!
• when people flatter me and sarcasm comes next. better hush-hush!
  
• when i cant remember the words to say when i'm speaking.
• when people talk about good books and i get too excited, only to find out the book is full of nothing. same thing with movies.
• when people see the world as a big shopping mall with an escalator going nowhere.
  
• when people spend more than what they can afford (i am a victim of this, i hate myself!)
• when people lie (everybody does, and everybody hates it! everyone gets a little drop of karma)
• when my pair of pants wont fit! damn im getting bigger!
• when i eat fatty and oily food, but i like them!
• when i can't puff a cig (sometimes i run out of stock)
• when people condemn me for being me. (mind your own)
• when people raise they're eyebrows on me
  
• when people mock me
• when dogs bark at me (damn you, im not a walking bone to eat)
• when mom asks serious things (mom, we're not used to having serious talks!)
• when i hear bad things about a friend from a friend (i don't really take sides, but there are times when i have to)
• when i'm running late for an appointment
  
• when people delay me
  
• when i don't have money (you think so?)
• when it's raining
• when the sun is burning hot
• when traffic is at its heaviest
• when you talk to me and i don't want to talk to you! (talk to the hand)
• when you don't talk to me and i want to talk to you (i'll talk to the hand)
• when you ask me why i gained so much weight (it's none of your f*ckin business, i just realized that food is my first love)
• when people catch me off guard. (i'm not a celebrity and don't be a paparazzi!)
• when my stomach is in so much pain because of indigestion
• when i can't say NO subtly and YES impliedly ( i wanna be good at giving courtesy to people)
• when people don't respect my opinion
• when people don't believe me (yes, i've heard of the man who cried wolves)
• when i run out of phone credits
• when my watch stops
• when someone steps on my shoe
  
• when someone saves his ass from his mistakes ( i know you)
• when the laundry shop hasn't done my laundry yet on the time they promised me.
• when i queue
  
• when people in the movie house laugh at the corniest part of the movie (get a dvd tape and watch it at home)
• when people from any social networking sites don't show their faces (you think you're mysterious? that's horrible! or you think people won't like how you look? would you think people would like headless people? or you think you're way too goodlooking? then get someone of the same game you play!)
• when movies start late
• when someone holds the microphone and don't let other people sing (videoke ei?)
  
• when people use scapegoats
• when people start their sentence with "actually", "basically" and "well" ... WELL ACTUALLY, THERE ARE OTHER WORDS TO REPLACE SUCH AS EVENTUALY, GRADUALLY, NORMALLY, NATURALLY, USUALLY, LEGALLY.. what's your choice?
  
• when someone lays his worst suggestion ever!
  
• when the door makes an "eeking" sound
• when i talk and nobody listens
• when people get too touchy and nothing special is going on! ( i don't deal with human hobbies)
• when im too drunk and you get too frank!
• when im running out of thoughts
• when the dvd i got jumps
• when i go to bars and get tipsy after a bottle (am i getting alcohol intolerant?, where's my prowess in drinking!)
• when we eat meat for 3 consecutive days at home! (not because i hate meat, or we have a lot of money to spend for meats, i just wanna have a variation with what i eat)
• when people mispronounce my name
• when people don't catch me when i fall (don't make me fall is the best thing you can do)

HALT TO A FULL STOP! can't think of other things to add on.

the window

I was just surfing on the world wide web and had a stop when I saw this story.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour a day to drain the fluids from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. And every afternoon when the man in the bed next to the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed would live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the outside world. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake, the man had said. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Lovers walked arm in arm amid flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old trees graced the landscape, and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Unexpectedly, an alien thought entered his head: Why should hehave all the pleasure of seeing everything while I never get to see anything? It didn't seem fair. As the thought fermented, the man felt ashamed at first. But as the days passed and he missed seeing more sights, his envy eroded into resentment and soon turned him sour. He began to brood and found himself unable to sleep. He should be by that window - and that thought now controlled his life.

Late one night, as he lay staring at the ceiling, the man by the window began to cough. He was choking on the fluid in his lungs. The other man watched in the dimly lit room as the struggling man by the window groped for the button to call for help. Listening from across the room, he never moved, never pushed his own button which would have brought the nurse running. In less than five minutes, the coughing and choking stopped, along with the sound of breathing. Now, there was only silence--deathly silence.

The following morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths. When she found the lifeless body of the man by the window, she was saddened and called the hospital attendant to take it away--no words, no fuss. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it all himself. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall.

Moral of the story:

The pursuit of happiness is a matter of choice...it is a positive attitude we consciously choose to express. It is not a gift that gets delivered to our doorstep each morning, nor does it come through the window. And I am certain that our circumstances are just a small part of what makes us joyful. If we wait for them to get just right, we will never find lasting joy.

The pursuit of happiness is an inward journey. Our minds are like programs, awaiting the code that will determine behaviors; like bank vaults awaiting our deposits. If we regularly deposit positive, encouraging, and uplifting thoughts, if we continue to bite our lips just before we begin to grumble and complain, if we shoot down that seemingly harmless negative thought as it germinates, we will find that there is much to rejoice about. Happiness is a choice that we share with people.

akala ko --- patay na ako

AKALA ,sapantaha, hinala, presumption, expectation, vermutungen, praesumptionis --- anu mang lenggwahe, iisa ang ibig sabihin, iisa ang dulot, na kapag nagkamali, sakit ang kapalit.

Ilang beses na rin, halos di ko na mabilang. Sino ba ang hindi nakakaalam na ang maling akala, ay maaaring makamatay? Akala mo mabuting tao, di mo alam mamamatay tao. Akala mo alagaing aso, di mo alam asong ulol. Akala mo makabubuti, di mo alam mapanganib. Akala mo mababaw yun pala malalim. Akala mo matino, yun pala sira. Akala mo maganda, yun pala pangit. Akala mo oo yun pala hindi. Akala mo gusto ko, yun pala kinamumuhian ka. Akala mo oo yun pala hindi. Akala mo anjan na, maghihintay ka pa. Akala mo mahal ka, may mahal palang iba.

Kakambal ng AKALA ay ang TIWALA. Kapag bumagsak ang "akala mo" patay ang "tiwala mo". Masakit man, di makabubuti ang paglamayan ang maling akala. Masakit man, kelangang tanggaping nagkamali ka. Kasama natin 'to habang buhay. Habang buhay ang pag-aakala sa mga bagay-bagay. Habang buhay man ang pagkakamali, di natin ito pinili. Ang pag-aakala ay parang
paghahangad ng isang mabuting bagay upang panatilihin ang mainit nating pagtanggap sa anumang hamon. Isipin mo na lang ang isang napakagandang bulaklak. Mabango. Makulay. Nakakaakit. Di mo alam, inuuod din pala. Di mo alam, taglay nito'y tinik. Kapag natusok ka, masasaktan ka, masusugutan, dudugo at di magtatagal maghihilom. Kasunod ay ang pagkatuto na hindi na muling magagalak sa kabigha-bighaning kagandahan. Ngunit minsan, mapangahas ang ating kalooban na muling subukan. Mas magiging maingat. Matinik ma'y pipiliin mo ang parte ng tangkay na iyong hahawakan. Subalit sa paglipas ng ilang sandali'y nakakalimot din, ililipat sa kabilang kamay at muling masasaktan. Paulit-ulit, pero kailangan.

Takot na akong magbigay ng "AKALA". Takot na ang pisi ng tiwala na nagdudugtong sa aking katinua'y unti-unting maglaho. Sa paglalakad sa hardin, di maiiwasan ang mabighani sa taglay na kagandahan ng bawat bulaklak. Maging mapanuri ma'y hindi sapat upang muling mamitas. Sisikilin ang hirap, maabot lamang ang hangad. Di bibigyang pansin ang dugong maaaring maubos sa dami ng sugat. Nakamamatay ang maling akala -- mapanganib. Subalit sa di mapigilang kagustuhan, hindi tayo tumitigil hangga't di nagiging TAMA ang ating AKALA.

the land of the beheaded "APO"

Malayu-layo na nga ang narating ng lungsod ng OLONGAPO. Mula sa mapagpakumbabang malawak na palaisdaan hanggang sa isang maunlad(?) na lungsod, mula sa noo'y nangangambang muling pagbangon mula sa bundok ng abong bumalot sa buong bayan hanggang sa isang masiglang siyudad, mula sa simpleng buhay hanggang sa isang markadong lugar dulot ng likas na yaman at ginintuang pamana, mula sa asul at pulang patay-sinding ilaw sa Calapandayan hanggang madagdagan ng orange, yellow,pink, purple, black-light, strobe light, flashlight at backlight - masasabing MAYAMAN NA NGA ANG LUNGSOD NG ULO NG APO. (taray!)

Sa kabila ng pagsulong ay ang mga tao, pangyayari, awitin, lugar, halaman, hayop, tae, kulangot at pati na siguro ang blackheads ng karamihan ay naging bahagi ng kinaluluklukan ng ating lungsod. Hindi ito isang pasasalamat sa lahat (or pwede na rin para di mashadong maangas ang dating) bagkus, ito'y isa lamang pag-alala,pagbabalik tanaw, sa mga bagay na unti-unting nababaon dulot ng patuloy na pagsulong ng Olongapo at ng mga mamamayan nito. Kung di ka taga-gapo, out-of-place ka sa usapang ito. At kung isa ka namang tulad ko na hindi man tubong Gapo ang mga magulang subalit binuo (uyyyy) , isinilang at nagkamalay dito, magbasa ka lang kung gusto mo. Pwede ka ring magreact wag lang mashadong epal.

Naisip ko lang... marami-rami pala ang mga bagay-bagay ang masasabing tatak Olongapo. Maging nakakahiyang bagay man yan, isipin mo na lang, hindi magiging ikaw kung sino ka ngayun kung wala ang mga ito.

Masasabing OLONGAPEñO ka kung:

• kaya mong sabayan ang jingle na "basura ay bigyang importansiya... upang Olongapo'y laging maganda.. ang wastong pagtapon ng ating basura.........."
  
• alam mo ang JINGLE ni "MR. S PAWNSHOP" at mareng "ANNE RAQUEL's"
• noo'y sikat ka kung may RAMBO slippers ka para sa tumbang preso, pero magtago ka pag dumating na ang may mga LOTUS bitbit ang JOURNEY bag nila.
• DWOK ang number 1 fm station. Si double B ang tinitilian kasabay ng paghihintay sa LOVER's lane. Ilang beses ka rin sigurong nag attempt tumawag sa 222-2222 para magrequest ng kanta.
  
• since nabanggit ko ang kanilang telephone number, minsan ka na ring nagbiro sa mga taong nagtatanong ng tel. no. mo at ibinigay ang numerong "222-22nog-tunog"
• mas sikat si daddy daddy at tyson kumpara sa mga GORDON. Kung babae ka, natakot ka sa flying kiss ni daddy. At kung lalaki ka, padrino mo sila.
• Ang rice cooker niyo siguro ngayun, o ang rice dispenser niyo ay nabili niyo pa sa STAR TV na siya ring dance floor ng magbestfriend na daddy at tyson.
  
• Nangamba ka rin sa maaaring biglang pagsulpot ng katutubong si Roberto Solomon sa inyong bahay upang manghingi ng tubig at manghiram ng itak... baka kasi bigla kang tagain na ayon sa kwento ay gawain niya upang maghiganti. May picture pa siya sa paligid-ligid upang maiwasan.
• Naniwala ka na may snow sa may bundok dun sa may kalaklan. wag kang adik!
• sa palagay mo na ang CHOAS ay "for everything" pero nung tinry kong bumili ng cartolina, wala naman. Pumunta ako sa expressions at rona's wala na rin. sad :(
• ang mga magulang mo ay may purchase passbook upang makapamili sa duty free.
• nag-crave ka sa taco's, coffee shop ang unang pumasok sa isip mo. kahit malayo, sulit naman, malaki e. (may bayad ang advertisement dito ha.. taco's lang please)
• Takot kang maligo (kahit gustong gusto mo) sa baloy, kale, ocean view at yang magkakatabing beach resort na yan dahil sabi nila, may lumulutang na PUPU. (kesho labasan daw ng dumi ang beach natin.. patay! sira ang turismo... uyy joke lang yata nila yun, pero once natry ko, meron nga! HAM NGA!)
  
• nasasarapan ka sa isaw sa may jone's at sa may wesley. Pero gustong umapila ng barbekyuhan sa may kanto ng 7th. st., dekada na raw sila, wala man lang naging suki! hahaha. lol
• bilib ka sa generic street naming ng gapo. 1st, 2nd, 3rd ....... teka nasan ang 10th? kung di mo alam, pwes meron 10th st. maliit nga lang. May alphabetical din tulad ng fendler st., gallagher st., hansen st., irving st., and so on and so forth.
• naniwala kang may aswang sa may gordon heights. pangalan pa lang, minsan gusto ko ng maniwala.
• pinipilit mong may KABABAE, palibhasa may KALALAKE! sige na nga, pati James Gordon elementary school ginawa na lang KABABAE elementary school ng karamihan. Hmmm... bakit kaya??? babae?? babae ba siya?? bababe ba? bababa? ba! ba!
  
• sa tingin mo, hindi guguho ang AIM HIGH OLONGAPO sa may bundok, nagkamali ka at kasabay ng paggiba ng bawat letra tuwing bagyo ay ang parang pagkalugmok mo sa pagkasira ng matayog mong pangarap. Di ka mashadong nabahala, nung dumating ang mga president para sa APEC meeting, pinalitan ito ng AIM HIGH PHILIPPINES. asan na ngayun?
• naniwala ka na ang tatlong krus malapit sa AIM HIGH OLONGAPO ay ang krus kung san pinako sina tito, vic at joey! hehehehehe!
• ang tawag mo sa cable ay catv. "nanay: anak buksan mo ang tv at manonood tayo ng STV 6, panoorin ko muna yung babaeng reporter na mukhang nakasipit yung ilong at mukhang 2 years di natulog" anak: "nay, walang CATV!" ----busy signal.
  
• sikat ka kung ang damit mo ay galing bye bye shop o kaya status!
• naabutan mo ang jollibee sa lot 21 na express lang. puro to go, walang dine in.
• nasarapan ka rin sa lugaw ng jepoy's sa may gordon ave. pero masuka suka ka nung biniro ka nilang "dinurog na butiki" raw ang binubudbod dun!
• sa lumang palengke kayo namimili at hindi sa bago. mas mura kasi sa luma.
  
• pinaghahandaang mabuti ang conti j. feeling mo mall na pagpupunta kayo dun. nanay: "anak, wag kang magdudumi at hindi kita isasama sa conti j, sige ka" -- e ano ngayun, di pumunta ka magisa mo! ahahahaha. lol
• nagkaron ka o kung di man, may kilala kang naka MIGHTY KID!
• na-enjoy mo rin ang usong laro nung panahong walang klase dahil sa pagputok ng pinatubo at may bundok pa ng abo --- ANG PATIBONG!
• ang mga grand parades na sinamahan mo ay laging nagmumula sa maingate papuntang triangle. at kung expectator ka naman, super expect ka talaga na may maghahagis ng CANDY mula sa kung ano mang float yan.
  
• hindi ka bilib sa mga sumasali ng miss olongapo... perahan kasi ang labanan.
• excited ka pagpasok ng OCTOBER, alam mong may mardigras na naman.
  
• excited ka rin sa pagpasok ng mga 3rd week ng november, may night market na naman. May excuse ka na para umuwi ng gabi.
  
• ang alam mong BOSS ay BAWAT ORAS SAMA SAMA
• tamad ka pero alam mong bawal. bawal lang naman daw e, pero hindi naman masama.
• kilala mo ang GORDON, pero mas sikat pa rin talaga si DADDY at TYSON.
• alam mo ang tamang pagpara ng yellow na jeep, depende kung pepsi o sta. rita ka pupunta. ang pagpara ng pepsi ay ituturo mo ang hintuturo samantalang ang pagposisyon ng hinlalaki na animo'y nagsisign language ng "OK" ay tungong sta. rita. Malamang pinagsabay mo rin ang mga senyas na yan, makapang-asar lang ng mga driver.
• nangarap ka ring mailagay ang iyong pangalan sa "AIM HIGH ACHIEVERS"
  
• hindi mo alam na ang rizal ave. patungong gate ng sbma (yung malapit sa james gordon hospital, pwede ring kababae hospital) yun nga, yung kahabaan na yun hanggang sa may bago dumating ng rotonda sa may magsaysay --- JUNGLE ang tawag dun! kung tinatanong mo kung bakit, pwes di ko rin alam , pero JUNGLE talaga ang tawag dun.
• naapektuhan ka ng lubos nang ayaw bumaba ni DICK GORDON bilang chairman ng SBMA, wala kasing pasok, wala ka ring baon.
• hindi ka naniniwalang ni-rape talaga si NICOLE. NEPTUNE ang pinuntahan, asa ka?
• Favorite mo ang manager's special ng "sam's pizza" at ang pancit canton ng "rico's"
• nakapaglaro ka ng TOUCHING RUNNER.
• nakipagtrade ka ng NBA cards at Ghost Fighter text sa JKB malapit sa st. jo
• pinilit mong parte ng WEST TAPINAC ANG NEW ILALIM - e hindi nga! magkaibang barangay yun. yung KABABAE nagpupumilit maging autonomus samantalang nagpapalawak pa ng kapangyarihan ang WEST TAPINAC! (teka lang, naconfuse din ako)
  
• sa pagkakaalam mo, magkakapatid ang may-ari ng mga dating sinehan, cinema a, cinema b, cinema c, --magkakalayong lugar naman!
• naabutan mo pa ang kasikatan ng dating CALJAM kung san nagmula ang career ni ariel pineda at kung san nagshooting ang "ANG UTOL KONG HUDLUM". May hard rock cafe rin nun.
• sinubukan mo ring magbowling sa cosmic at pagsapit ng 9pm, magdidilim at may voice over "iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit's cosmic time" sabay magiging luminous ang mga bola. akala mo nasa ibang planeta ka na! astig! apir! di mo na napansin ang baho ng rented bowling shoes mo. kung hi-tech sila, malupet pa rin ang people's choice na kung san, sila "kuya" ang nagtatayo ng bowling pin na tinutumba mo! tira-tayo-tira-tayo--- ay canal-- buti na lang, nakapahinga si kuya!
• nagsawa ka rin sa kwento ng kabaong na lumulutang sa tabacuhan twing bumabaha.
  
• nafood poison ka o kung di man, may kilala kang nafood poison sa pagkain sa cindy's sa may columban.
  
• feeling mo sikat na sikat ang wimpy's sa ibang lugar!
  
• nasarapan ka sa tinapay ng mansion's
• nagkayayaan kayo bilang tropa na magswimmig sa YMCA! nagbaon pa kayo ng cheesedogs, yes cornic, at kung anu ano pang mamisong pagkain.
  

haaay, di ba't tama ako? parte ang mga bagay na ito sa paghubog ng makabagong OLONGAPO, di man ito ang lahat, masayang nagdaan tayo sa mga kakatwang bagay upang mas mapayabong pa ang ating mahal na lungsod. Kung may mga bagay man akong nasagasaan, isyung nabuksan, paumanhin, di ko po sadya. Nawa'y malawak na pasensha na lamang ang ibahagi nyo sa akin! Sorry! adik lang! hehehe.

shad's standpoint on english teaching for the KOREANS

6:00 am - when everybody is still in bed, dreaming their million dollar dreams while for some, they are starting to sip their hot brewed coffee, and flipping the pages of the broadsheet to be the first to capture the world's latest episode. I have never seen myself starting my day this early for the last 2 years whereas call center was my life. I decided to leave the harebrained job after years of simulatedly working. Nevertheless, completely wandering in the world of unemployment was out of the picture. A stone just hit my consciousness that being wide awake at night is no longer what I want. Or simply because, Manila is no longer the place I want to stay.

I went back to Olongapo where my life started. The place where I first had my cerelac. The place where my simple infantile wants were rooted. I went back with one guileless plan. To rest. I didn't think of how long. I just thought of relaxation and distressing. Distressing from the bad traffic, sweated shirts, high-cost of living, commuters, smokers (but im a smoker myself. hehe), smoke-belchers and all the messy things found in a big city.

One fine day, I found myself getting bored just being on-line the whole day while the t.v is on without really watching anything on it. No one to talk to since mama and papa are at work. No money to spend (but I didn't really bother, since there is an abundance of edible ones) . So I bugged a friend who's living just few blocks away and invited her to look for a job. Since we found out that Korean english teaching is a no-brainer job and we can easily land on it, we endeavored. Lucky we were, we hired out our brains (haha!)

I'm a first day boor. Intimidating and cocky. The moment I stepped at work I wanted their eyes on me. (hahahaha) It's my way to show people that I deserve their respect. My smile was hardly seen, (or a reason can be the transition from being nocturnal to the normal people's biorhythm was that fast, so the night before, I went to bed late or may be I woke up on the wrong side of the bed... millions of excuses, but I didn't just like smiling) *while writing, a friend came* hahaha.. nice one col-col. moving forward, the first day went just fine. ***i went out.... coffee.coffee.coffee***

(I just came back)

I hate imperialism. And I hate activism too. I'm caught somewhere in between. Teaching was not my passion. Or it is, if I am to teach my fellow Filipinos. But I am starting to love it. I hate the fact that in no longer time KOREANS will become fluent in the language (alam kong hindi naman ako fluent e. hehehehe). It frightens me that sooner, this language will fuel them to become globally competitive and the Philippines will just be left behind. We have the resources that we need to be above all else. They acquire what we have and use it over us. Going deeper in this sense is not my game. I hate thinking deep. All I know is that something is wrong with this. I have hired out my brains to this rich moneymaking compromise that keeps my stomach full but sucks up the idealism from my soul. I have thought of teaching them wrong english. There are times that I don't teach during class hours just to help out in this ever-darkening predicament.

I may sound very radical on this but I am not. I am still hoping for a better Philippines when I see Korean people in the street. They get educated by us.

the fall of the lion city's dream

Stupid i was when i said that i was starting my success in Singapore. Stupid of you for believing. But this stupidity isn't that bad at all. You probably thought that I was about to land on a good paying job in that city. I hoped too. However, it didn't happen. I could have exerted more effort in paying attention to that opportunity. (here comes the shoulda-woulda-coulda thought again)

"NAGPAPICTURE LANG AKO" as i crack the joke to whoever ask about it. The idea of hitting 3 birds with one stone (visiting the country, bonding with my sis and job) turned out to hit only 2. But then, i just started stepping into that ever familiar state of mind. (argh. brain cells aren't working real good now) But seriously, the social visit taught me of dreaming big and starting small. It was there where I realized that being globaly competitive should be backed up with competitive scholastic records (which i think i didn't fall short...ehem! har har) and a good work experience (which i hardly never had). Global career isn't in my mind yet. I brought home this dream of becoming someone when i go back. I am planning to take much of my time to study a certain discipline that would open the road to the success people are most familiar of. And the stupidity is fumigated! It was one great blessing I have received.

One great lesson is: I am a work in progress! (huhuhuhu. should i get stumbled, I'll kill myself... har har)

Im sorry about the writing... hindi talaga ako gifted dito! :)

ready to conquer singapura

Just few days before leaving for Singapore, I had some good-times for few consecutive nights with my different sets of friends. It was one way of saying goodbye to these fellows without really having the heavy heart once I am off. On the date of my flight, just like any other Filipinos (which i had a first hand experience from my friends who also went abroad), I sent a group message to everyone in my phonebook to say may farewell speech. Few replied. Others, no reaction, or maybe they just changed digits without my knowledge. Just before the airplane which will carry me and my cousin to Singapore arrived, I made a call to our eldest cousin in the maternal side to say goodbye as well. With my 4 y.o. niece's voice saying "ingat kayo", I suddenly had few moments of silence. I realized that in no more than a day, I'm gonna be living temporarily across the country. The thoughts of Singapore and the excitement all went down to my feet as if I'm backing off. But having the philosophy which my bestfriend shared with me, I'm believing Rhonda Bryne with her "The secret", that I must put positive energy so that my visualization will be sent to the universe.
Let me me put an end with this drama for I am not used to it.

When the plane has landed at around 9 pm since the flight was 45 mins. delayed, I wasn't still thinking that I am in Singapore. It was more of a new place somewhere in the Philippines. But when we hailed a cab, and found out that Singapore is a right-hand driven country, then it shook my consciousness that I am in the Lion City.

We went straight to my sister's HDB (condo, flat or apartment, but here, they call it HDB) to have dinner. Few minutes we rested, then we went to Orchard road. Orchard is the heart of Singapore. We had some photo ops and went to LUCKY PLAZA, ang pinakasikat na mall para sa mga PINOY dito.

The next day, we had a city tour. With my sis' corporate card, we are entitled to enjoy a lot of places and ammenities for free Singapore has to offer. The famous Sentosa island was on the top of the list. Cable car, pink dolphin show, Singapore zoo, skyrider, the luge, songs of the sea, these are some of the things we had a stop on the first day of the tour.

It came to my knowledge that Merlion is the statue Singapore is famous of.

MERLION name was picked for a reason. It was inspired by the Asia-Pacific region - the origin of products which were a starting point in the company's distribution business. The idea was to link the new name and ancient chronicles of inhabitants of the Indian Ocean's islands. These chronicles mention a mythical character "half-fish, half-lion", or Merlion - the guardian angel of Singapore.

One of the legends tells that ages ago a giant beast lived in the area, with the head of a lion and the body of a fish. The beast was guarding the ancient Singapore. When Merlion saw an enemy, its eyes would lit up with red fire and burn the foe to ashes. Never ever has Merlion missed the danger. And one day, when the country was menaced by a terrible storm, the majestic creature came out of the sea and saved humans from inevitable peril, and the country - from inevitable destruction. People of Singapore still worship Merlion. To commemorate their savior, they have built the 37 meters high stone sculpture of the lion-fish.

All legends chant Merlion as a brave and reliable defender of the country and its people. We chose the name of Singapore's legendary guardian MERLION as the symbol of power, reliability and unfailing duty.

Now that I am here, I can say that I am ready to conquer Singapura. I declared and claimed that the starting point of my success is here. Let the universe hear my thoughts.